We are all so good at smiling

Narrator (interlude) --

Part one. The wilting: Call me magic : call me (Whimsy) --

Prologue: Hospital : the whimsy girl: Outside my hospital window ; Car (silver) like a broadsword ; Shadow-wings ; Things I know about fae ; Morning (bathroom) ritual ; Mom & Dad visit ; Reasons it's easier for Mom & Dad ; Break-fast ; The fae (Faerry) ; Group therapy ; Group therapy : tell us a secret ; My answer : cemetery of leaves ; Everyone (in therapy) is silent after my soliloquy ; Last week in the hospital --

Chapter 1. Whimsy comes home: Back home on Marsh Creek Lane ; My old notebook stuffed with fairy tales ; The (haunting) forest ; Outside my house on Marsh Creek Lane : October 28 ; Faerry (still annoying) : on Marsh Creek Lane ; What (I think) Faerry does next ; Marsh Creek Lane (home) --

Chapter 2. Fairy tales : Faerry tales: What's wrong with a monster? : Whimsy's fairy tale essay/poem ; I like my poem ; Doorbell rings : Faerry on my stoop again ; Faerry reads my poem ; Faerry's fairy tale essay/poem ; Good night, Faerry ; Locket ; Dinnertime chat ; Sleep, nightmare, wake, repeat --

Chapter 3. Stone Ridge High School: Morning (October 29) ; Morning (October 29) outside my house ; High school ; Before AP English class (teacher chat) ; Things I hear my classmates say ; Things I hear Valda (the bully) say ; Inferno by Dante ; (Faerry) in my AP English class ; Teacher questions for new kid? ; Questions on the reading? ; Circles of Hell ; Faerry gathers his things too --

Chapter 4. Runaway: We walk ; Car ride ; We keep driving ; Home ; Cole is missing? --

Chapter 5. The forest with the garden: tConsequences at dinner ; After 10 p.m. there is a knock ; Things I did not tell the officer ; October 30 ; October 30 (midday) ; October 30 (nighttime) ; October 31 ; Evening: October 31 (of my 18th year) --

Chapter 6. What I remember: Haunting forest ; Finding Cole ; This is what I remember ; The candy house ; Inside the candy house ; The clearing --

Chapter 7. Pinky promise: The edge ; In haunting forest again ; Whimsy in sorrow's garden ; The house sorrow built ; Meeting sorrow again ; The only way ; Abandon all hope : in the garden sorrow built ; Enter here ; Hope sinks. --

Part two. The tears: Chapter 8. Baba Yaga's house: (My sorrow garden) ; (When it rains ice) ; (Sorrow & memories) ; (Grandma's twin house in the garden) ; (Meeting Baba Yaga) ; (Outside Baba Yaga's house) --

Chapter 9. Escaping sorrow (again): (Back at the start) ; (I deserve the garden) ; (Hooting & breaking) ; (Through the fire again) ; (Faerry grabs my hand) --

Chapter 10. Anansi the spider's den: (The webs of Anansi) ; (Anansi cried) ; (Faerry & I discuss) ; (The answer) --

Chapter 11. Mama Wata: (Catching magic) ; (Walking memories) ; (Fae wings) ; (What I see) ; (Back on the yellow brick road) ; (Mama Wata & the ocean in a globe) ; (Under the water of words, I hear them [the bullies] say) ; (Whimsy the mermaid) --

Chapter 12, Don't eat the apple: (Apples of the sky) ; (Bruises) ; (Riddle) ; (Names of giant apples) --

Chapter 13. Adze & the blood moon: (Amorphophallus titanum : corpse flower) ; (Never trust a firefly) ; (Hospital room) ; Clinical (major) depression ; (Forgiveness) ; (Faerry's story) ; (Forgiveness again) --

Chapter 14. Voicelessness & the siren Ursula: (We stay cocooned) ; (Ursula : voice-taker) ; (Thanatosis) ; (Panic attacks feel like...) --

Chapter 15. The griot with stories: (A griot) ; (Story one : what the children saw) ; (Falling again) ; (Story two : what the parents saw) ; (Story three : what actually happened) ; (Whimsy & Faerry scream) --

Chapter 16. Faerry (tale) & Whimsy (Cole): (Bigger than bravery) ; (Tale & Cole) ; (We've been watching you) ; (Truth). --

Part three. The rebirth: Chapter 17. Fairy tales in the secret garden: (Candy house : final time) ; (Explosion) ; (Fairy tales celebrate in the garden sorrow built) ; (To home we go) --

Epilogue: Happy endings : Whimsy & Faerry: (Whimsy & Faerry) --

Narrator (interlude) --

Author's note --

Glossary of fairy tales, stories & folklore --

Fairy tales in this story --

Whimsy & Faerry's playlist --

Acknowledgments.